I always feel busy. I always feel like I need to be in a hurry because, well, there’s all this stuff I have to do. Truth? Yeah, I do so very little because there’s so much I want to do that I get overwhelmed by the sheer magnitude of it that I decide to do something like surf facebook or look at flickr pics or something else that will accomplish next to nothing on the List of Great Things I Must Accomplish.
I’ve been working on a new song (a lament) for weeks now… why is it taking me weeks? Because I don’t have time, of course! I have so much on my plate - so many things to take care of… taking time to sit down and write a song that God has given me to write is just so, well, time-consuming. This could take me hours of dedicated time to sit and finish the lyrics and then, ugh, I need to create a melody that doesn’t sound cheesy… and then - I have to figure out chords to play with that melody.
I’m in the middle of reading, like 6 books - well, I say “in the middle” when I’ve been “in the middle” of them for at least a year (if not more). You see, reading takes TIME and I’m busy. I have too many irons in the fire and too many other irons just sitting there waiting their turn. I can’t just ignore them - they need validation.
I’ve got two beautiful girls who love their daddy. But, you see, I’m busy. I have emails to read and songs to write and books to read - not to mention all of my commitments. Sorry sweetie - can’t read to you right now, daddy’s busy (surfing facebook). Haven’t I already told you that daddy’s busy (looking at flickr pics)? Wow - that’s really a pretty… whatever that is. Yes, sweetie, daddy will be done in a little bit… just be patient, okay?
I haven’t been getting The Quiet Time in lately. Pretty high up there on the List of Great Things I Must Accomplish. But, you see, I’ve been really, really busy. I have this new blog and it requires just the right template and that template requires tweaking. Wow - 1:00 am already? Ugh - well, gonna have to skip The Quiet Time because I need at least 5 hours of sleep so that I’m semi-awake enough to continue down The List of Great Things I Must Accomplish.
Lately I’ve noticed that I’m tired a lot. Why? Because I’m not getting enough sleep. Duh! Have you been paying attention? I have much greatness left on the List of Great Things I Must Accomplish that are just not getting accomplished and I’ve promised that I’ll get to the next one right after I check this facebook entry… or, wow, cool! That’s an awesome Flickr pic… wonder how they took that? HDR? Yeah, gotta learn that!
So much time… so little to do.
Hopefully, you see in these writings a man who is staying The Course and pursuing The Path amidst the pitfalls and selfish ways of being a son of Adam. I pray earnestly that my writing would encourage some of you by showing you that this journey - though arduous and sometimes tragic - is a journey of great satisfaction. A satisfaction greater than our greatest imaginings. The trials and refining fire of tribulation are to be recognized as a small shadow of the suffering of our Savior so that we can rejoice, as Peter and the disciples did, to be counted worthy to suffer for the sake of the Name.