Hi, my name is Larry Gross and welcome!
What is contained in the posts of my blog will probably only be interesting to you if you either know me already or identify specifically with the struggle that I’m facing each and every moment of my life. That struggle, quite plainly, is a struggle between two sides of myself. One side is bent on ensuring my ultimate survival by making certain that I’m heard, noticed, and adored… even worshiped. The other side is bent on ensuring my ultimate survival by making certain that I listen, remain humble, and adore others… and stop worshiping my favorite god (me!)
They both have the same goal, but one is doomed to failure. It becomes obvious which one that is when you examine my life and see that I’m often unheard, unnoticed, and frankly unworthy of adoration (or worship). One way tries so very hard to guarantee “ultimate survival” in this life only to be constantly disappointed that life isn’t going according to plan. The other way doesn’t always look like survival in this life, and yet has more actual life in it.
What I really want – truly, madly, deeply – is that I become a person more interested in other people than myself, someone more concerned with getting others noticed than being noticed, and someone whose worship of the One True God shows itself by His love constantly cascading from this life to touch all who journey alongside this humble child of God. Oh – only if it were so.
Hopefully, you see in these writings a man who is staying the course and pursuing the path amidst the pitfalls and selfish ways of being a son of Adam. I pray earnestly, that my writing in some way would encourage some of you by showing you that this journey – though it be arduous and sometimes tragic – is a journey with such great satisfaction in this life that the trials and refining fire of tribulation are recognized as a small shadow of the suffering of our Savior so that we can rejoice, as Peter and the disciples did, to be counted worthy to suffer for the sake of the Name.
Don’t get me wrong – it’s not all suffering. I do put the word satisfaction in that sentence. The problem with the word is how narrowly we define it today. Satisfaction is defined as shallow and fleeting in today’s experience. Well, it often is; however, the satisfaction we can experience as children of the One True God is deeper than our deepest love, more lasting than our greatest mountain-top jubilation, and more transcendent than our greatest imaginings. Don’t believe me? I don’t blame you – I wouldn’t either if not for His Spirit giving me constant assurance and the fact that the satisfaction I speak of grows within me every day… even in the midst of the discontentment that comes with the approaching of that dreaded thing we call “middle age.” How satisfaction and discontent can be so intertwined in one life is beyond explanation – but the satisfaction that grows does, from time to time, completely overshadow the discontentment while the discontentment is never able to completely overshadow the satisfaction.
Amazing grace how sweet the sound that saved a wretch like me… o for a thousand tongues to sing my great Redeemer’s praise… this is my story, this is my song, praising my Savior all the day long… be Thou my vision oh Lord of my heart, naught be all else to me, save that Thou art… Jesus, Jesus, Jesus, sweetest name I know, fills my every longing, keeps me singing as I go.
Hopefully, you see in these writings a man who is staying The Course and pursuing The Path amidst the pitfalls and selfish ways of being a son of Adam. I pray earnestly that my writing would encourage some of you by showing you that this journey - though arduous and sometimes tragic - is a journey of great satisfaction. A satisfaction greater than our greatest imaginings. The trials and refining fire of tribulation are to be recognized as a small shadow of the suffering of our Savior so that we can rejoice, as Peter and the disciples did, to be counted worthy to suffer for the sake of the Name.